【Middle 。 】

it have been a very long time i didn't upload my blog ...
since when i log in to my blog .. i feel very comfortable ..
because it is already in midnight ..
and i am listening the instrumental that i share on my blog here ..
nobody disturb me at all ..
i wish i could live in a spaces without any person
and enjoy the wonderful music ..


in this few months , so many things are happened
there makes me happy and joy, but also makes me unhappy and sad
i accidentally select the wrong direction ...
i am walking on the road that will bring me a lot of sadness


i am very stupid .. i keep blame my self ..
how come i can be like that ..i am totally regret at all
regretted taking this step .. however, now is too late to regret ..
i can only say that when we do everything,
have to think more carefully only make a decision ..


i lived alone for half a year ... i think .. i also got used to this kind of life ...
only network, family, colleagues life ... i am wondering .. i really got used to it?
i am only 18 years old . but already have to live such a boring life?


Are you really thought that i was really laughing ?
already half years ... i really do not feel any of fun and happy


in my life .. i really have nothing ..
i really feel my self are very pathetic ..